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Monday, April 11, 2011

Mr. Pain

"Pain Is Inevitable, Misery Is Optional"

When I was an online junky I used to 'hang out' at a well known Poker Site that allowed you to play poker with 'play' money.  It was amazing the shenanigan's that the folks there partook in during their 'poker playing' time.  I soon learned that this site was like many others out there....a site where people became pretty tight with strangers from all over the country.  There were 'groups' of people that would hang out together sort of like the days in high school and heaven forbid you'd tick off anyone that was friends with this person or that person.  Eventually I'd noticed that people would get into actual 'cyber' relationships'!  I didn't get that part of it...the cyber relationships part.  After all, I was there to learn to play the game of poker and maybe laugh a time or two.  While playing there, I soon started to become friends with this guy whom called himself Mr. Pain.  I didn't know his real name, only the name he chose for this particular site, nor did I know what he looked like in real life form.  I did know though, that he would often have my back if others would pick on me and step out of 'cyber' line.  He was quite the 'cyber friend'! 

During these days spent there, I often wondered why he decided to call himself Mr. Pain.  I mean, really, we could choose any name in the whole universe to use, and he chose Mr. Pain?  Oftentimes I'd log into the site, see him at a poker table,notice that he had a seat next to him reserved, and before I knew it, he'd be messaging me asking me to join him at the table he was playing at.  We'd chat during the game, some sort of silly talk about our daily lives.  We didn't have any kind of rampant online love affair or anything like that, but we became pretty good cyber friends.  Wierd how that sounds, isn't it?  So there I'd sit, cyberly speaking, at a poker table with him while playing poker and chatting an hour away here and there. 

It wasn't too long before I started wondering, non-stop, about that name he chose.  Does he hurt physically and is he in pain?  Does he want people to know that he can create pain within you if he really wanted to?   Is his heart broken and is he in a severe depression kind of pain?   Maybe he's a bouncer at some club somewhere and causes people pain on a regular basis.  Geez....the things you can think if you have an overly busy brain like me!  Did I ever ask him about this Mr. Pain name he chose?  Nope.  I felt like that would be getting too personal, so I'd just wonder about it while we chatted and played poker. 

Pain.  Now that I'm in it, I often wonder what is the chemical nature or breakdown in the body that causes it.  There are many different types of pain as we all know, but the pain I'm talking about is muscular and nerve based.  If I do ONE THING different during my week, like for instance, take the dog for a walk, I pay for that walk it in the form of pain for the next two days in my entire body.  If I stand on my feet too long, the nerves in my feet freak out when I go to bed, and thus, again, I pay for putting my nerves under that kind of pressure and I pay dearly, in the form of pain in my feet for the entire night!  Try this on for yourself....try sleeping through the night as your feet, ankles and legs are being attacked by hot pokes with some sort of invisible needle.  Grrr....., trust me, this type of pain sucks!

So I wonder again, yup I do a lot of wondering, but anyway.... I wondered again since pain has become my close friend, what do people do, when they are in constant pain?  I mean narcotics are out of the question if you want to be able to think clearly.  And pot smoking is still illegal here in my state, and even if it wasn't, would it ease my nerve pain?  What do people do to get ahead of the game of pain?  I'd like to exercise, yet any time I try to get started, the pain is there, quickly and instantly, letting me know that it's not liking whatever it is that I'm doing and either I stop then and there, or pay the consequences. 

So this is the question I pose; how does someone in pain help to bring the level of it down a few notches?  I know I don't have any readers like I did with my last blog, so I'm going to have to google this and try to find out.  In the mean time, if someone does stumble on to my little ol' blog and knows the answer to this question, feel free to share.  After all....as I've said before, sharing is caring.  If I come up with anything in the mean time I will share too.   :-)

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Here sits I....

Today I woke up to a puppy that needed to relieve himself.  I looked at the clock and it was 3:30am.  Ugh.  I get up, take him out, and then come back in, trying to decide if I should just stay up or go back to bed for the next hour and a half before my son wakes up.  I decide to try the bed and at least make the attempt for some much needed sleep.  Apparently Solomon, our puppy, hadn't relieved himself to his content, because before too long he was barking again.  I get up and take him back out and sure enough, he poops. 

So, here sit's I...trying to figure out what to do next, so that I can keep my coffayy appointment with my mother and a friend today.  I keep counting....how many hours is it before I can go back to bed?  What time will they be here for coffayy?  How long will they stay?  And what the heck is wrong with me?  Why do I treasure sleep soooo much?  I used to hate to sleep, always afraid of missing out of something exciting happening in the world.  But lately, I'm tired ALL THE TIME. 

I started reading up on sleep and MS.  According to the The Sleep Foundation, fatigue is "one of the most common symptoms of MS, and can be profoundly disabling." Well, I'm profoundly disliking the fact that I'm constantly tired.  Grrr!

My aunt swears by the powers of Melatonin , and after reading the article that I have linked in this post, and the 'maybe's' that associate Melatonin with helping the immune system, I just might try it.  If you have found something that helps you sleep, aside from prescription drugs, please comment and let me know what you've found that helps you....after all, sharing is caring.  :-)