So my little guy tells me tonight that he can tell things with me have changed, physically speaking, that is. I asked him exactly what he meant when he said that....he explains that I'm walking better, and I'm more 'awake'. Ha...funny, I always think that I'm in some sort of fog, but apparently he doesn't see that in me. He also said my feet seem to be better, no pain. And another good thing? He said, 'You aren't taking naps like you used to." Hmmm....I am happy that he's seeing changes but seriously, can it be from the Copaxone shots? Or is it due to the fact that my divorce is over and I'm not carrying around this 300lb guy that can lash out at me at his will and turn things upside down with one phone call?
I hate to say it, but I can't do the shots in certain area's of my body. The backs of my arm's for instance; can't reach back there to hit the spot that I need it to be inserted into. So, tonight, I asked the not so little guy to assist me. He's become really very good at giving me those shots. But dayum....they hurt so bad! I NEVER have issue's with needles. Even when I was injecting myself with the Avonex, even as that shot was very unpleasant due to being an intra-muscular injection, and the horrid side effects for the next 24 hours, I was still able to tolerate it and NOT cringe when I thought of it. For some reason, with this Copaxone, I hate thinking of it. I hate the shot. It hurts...stings a bit, welts up so big and red, and just plain 'ol hurts like a bi*** afterwards. Darn thing even hurts for hours afterwards. Ughh.
I should be grateful, I know. And truly I am. Or am I? Ha! I guess this calls for a change in attitude? Yep...I would like to look at this treatment in a different light. Time to change that thought process is NOW. :)
